Grieving The Living
My journey through grief began 4 years ago on Valentine's Day, 2017. My daughter had been ill and after a misdiagnosis and unneeded ovary removal...she was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer at the age of 27! That Valentine's Day she went through a 10 hr colonectomy surgery that would ever change her living with any normalcy..especially and that age! Living with an ileostomy at that age is a devestating change! But after being told she had thousands of pylops and it was a genetic defect, and already at stage 4, incurable....I was beyond devestated for my child. I just wanted her to have no matter what adjustments she had to go through. I was beyond lucky to be her mother, caregiver until the very end and realize how precious life is. I spent 3 years attempting to make every moment count..no matter how big or small. And I appreciate that greatly. But I also spent 3 years of the ups and downs of treatment, sickness and watching her die that I was already grieving for wha